to stand. and to just wonder what is really happening

i cant stand rejection
i cant anymore
rejection leads to confusion
confusion wud somehow leads to bad conclusion
bad conclusion caused by high expectations

here locked in my heart

i dont really wanna talk bout wat ive been doing
cuz ive shared with you
so, i dont feel any needs to share it anywhere else or to anyone else

but i gotta tell u
i have a problem
i have problem on how to explain my feelings u're making me have
its impossible to express
id always go "i. i. i."
i want to say how i feel but it feels as if my mouth suddenly froze cuz with u, the feeling im having is undescribeable :)

i have one more problem
i have dis one fear of losing u
i dun want any other guys to have anything to do with u
haha
but i noe it doesnt work dat way phffft
so, if any guys out there is reading dis,
back off frem her!
hahaha -..-"
but its okay. trust me, she wont like u anyway haha
*bajet gile seyh mamat niyhhhh

p/s
.
i. ... i....
see? i cant describe it. but i need to tell you this amaaaazing feeling

dis is sooo unreal
i never had feel this way
and this feeling wud never change
pls stay :)

you r everything
forever

traffic

fuhhh. it's kinda hard fer me to write coz somehow when i dont write,i wud always have shitload of ideas pouring out from filthy brain but the moment when i have the tendency (sounds more like a science term) to write,somehow(ok,maybe i'm using to much "some") in some part of my brain where "the brain fluid of writing blog" pass through, there's a traffic light dat wud turns red whenever my anxiety of writing rush through my veins -..-"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <-here's the blog writing brain alley
~~~~~000~~~~~ <- here's the traffic light

and it'd go like
~~~~~000|||~~~ <-this! -..-"

okayyy,
i'm feeling it nowww
it's comingggg
BYE *redlight

zzzzzzzzzz

much have i learnt

it's a wide world out there. the saying is very true tho.
there's a lot more of life than just school actually
i just realized this now since spm has ended for me. FOREVER *just by reminding this soothes me :D haaaahhh.LOL

okay, lets see how much have i done so far:
work *hell tiring,trust me,studying is way more fun than stuck in ur box and facing the monitor all day long trying to think what's the write word to write ,
movies *watching movies happen to be my part time job now. either the one downloaded at the internet or the one that is on the cinema. i wud watch all of em. it has become my addiction now
friends *this one is quite interesting. okay here i go. i'll make it short.
1st sory: hilman is my schoolmate.
he introduced me to arif,
arif introduced me to hafiz
and hazim
and the list goes on and on
2nd story: this one is literally similar to the first one but this time the pioneer is
my driving instructor,ray who is the coolest driving instructor ever
etc. *i have a lot more to tell but i'm too lazy to keep on keep my fingers tapping this keyboard. -..-"

suddenly, i don't have the urge to write . bhaha. k then, see ya later alligator

it's hard fer me as much as it is fer you

i've decided to be with her coz i dont want to keep on hoping coz dat hurts
but now i know it hurts more
i didnt do dis coz i love her, i did dis coz i wanna let go of you
and i tot i'd work
so, u better move on coz things r better fer you without me
trust me, i dont deserve you
i've hurt you, u shud hate me
curse me in everyway u can
i am mean, and i dont deserve a nice girl like you
u shud hate me,really
i think u shud know

i noe this it's confusing coz sometimes i write,and sometimes i dont but just leave it to me to do the thinking and u guys concentrate on reading. k?
good then

listen here :)

okay.
i went to see this movie,RIO with my friends two weeks
it was actually kinda like MRSM AG third batch's reunion
well,me and ahmad planned the whole event, *sooounds like hella work but it was kinda easy coz all we have to was just invite em all through phone and facebook
well,most of em turned up on the day .
it was quite successfull because our friends from johor and melaka oso came two days before the event.
these guys from melaka and johor slept at Ash's house and mine
well,i'm not gonna babble bout the reunion but it was hell fun coz almost everybody was there :)
now,imma tell you bout RIO.to be honest, i havent watched animation movie fer quite a long time coz i somehow at some point tot dat it's childish to do so. *yeah rite
and fer the record,i just did! haha. *excited lak
i've watched two movie so far this month dat is RIO and Scream 4
okay,i'mma start writing on this RIO thang
what attracts me the most bout this movie is the songs.
to be honest,i really love musical movie.but actually watched one so far ,not including RIO ehehehehhh.
the first musical movie that i think worth watching is Across The Universe
i'm not quite sure if i'm lovestrucked by the movie because of the storyline,or the music or the gorgeous heroin inside the movie -..-"
haha,but it was an overall decision actually
i loved the songs coz all of the songs in this movie covers The Beatles' songs and hell yeah i'm their biggest fan and they made the cover awesome-ly!
-..-" i cant believe i havent started on talking bout RIO
haha
okay here i go
Rio is actually the main character in this movie which is a blue bird which cant fly.he has been looked after by this one really nice woman who found him when Rio was just a small bird.it's a long story so i'm not gonna tell everythang.
what i really love bout Rio is actually this one part where Rio and his mate were sitting on a car and there was this one song they sang
it was FLY LOVE by JAMIE FOXX
damn,i fell in love with the song right at the moment i heard the first line which is the whispering part :P i hope u guys would listen to it
and LISTEN TO THE LYRICS will ya??
below is the link to the vid.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ietFufBi_k&feature=related

i oso watched Scream 4(18). *i had to put the '18' thang eventho it is not necessary
LOL

and all i can say bout this movie is i only got excited when the movie's almost ended. i really really like the part when this one guy got shot on his balls and everryman in the cinema was like, "uhhhh" "urghhhh" "ouchhh"

this is the girl who shot the gun

this girl was just plain stupid coz she ran towars a mirror,shot herself on her arms and pull her hair off. LOL. it was suppose to be freaky but i found it to be hillarous :D

its not dat i dont like waitingg -.-"

The way you move is like a full-on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You're the kind of reckless that should send me running
But I kinda know that I won't get far

And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't
See what I was thinking of

Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me
When you're not around

'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something
You find I'm even better than you imagined I would be

I'm on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you, I know it's no good
And I could wait patiently
But I really wish you would

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain

Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me
When you're not around

'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

I'll run my fingers through your hair
And watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me
It's just wrong enough to make it feel right

And lead me up the staircase
Won't you whisper soft and slow
I'm captivated by you, baby
Like a fireworks show

Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me
When you're not around

'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

And the parks fly
Oh, baby, smile
And the sparks fly

"search for a girl who cares bout you.even when it comes to the smallest thing",said ayah
-aziz ishak

you would text her everynite before she goes to sleep, just to wish her goodnite.. and if one nite,u dont text her..she doesnt notice or doesnt say anything that means she does not notice u.. u enjoy her presence,but does she feels the same way to? ;/

Real love begins where nothing is expected in return.

u dont love a woman because she is beautiful,but she is beautiful because you love her :)

Find a guy

who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will

stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...
The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her.

p/s: be dat guy!

BUAT BUAT BUAT LAGI :) it's okay

i noeeee
again
i deleted my posts
again
but i just cant stand it
i need to write bout YOU

but this time around,i'll write short
just a quote for a day
:)

quote of the day:

i feel as if my heart's a ghost town
i couldnt hear a single sound
i searched for u around
but u were nowhere to be found .

p/s: i noeeee,i noeee,say wat u want ..but this time around i'mma do this